im just tired

one month ago
and I feel that hand clutching mine like it was only yesterday


it pains me now

to think of the week following

when I seem to recall you repeating "it couldn't have been a worse time"

and I trying to reassure you that exams didn't matter to me, and that it would be okay, saying " there could have never be a 'good' time."

but you were seeking a different kind of comfort
not affirmation that I would be okay

...and I thought I was helping
but listen, I'm not trying to make things worse
I don't want to act bitter

it's just that I'm really tired of this